Patriotic pride.

Yummy taco salad. #Busters

whats summer without lace?

Bought a thrift store dress and because it was pretty short i needed to add some length ! so I bought some pretty lace at a fabric store and added it on ! VERY time consuming esp without a sewing machine but nonetheless, it works! and i LOVE IT =]

I love altering my clothes to MY fit and MY personal style. its unique and NO ONE will have the same ! xx

The power of love.

You never know how much power or effect words can have on someone so close to you . I mean, then again if they are that close to you, shouldn’t you know to some extent what the effect may be?

I feel like at times we can get so wrapped up in the way WE feel SO MUCH that we forget to think about how someone else might feel.

The next question is. WHY are you feeling this way? what is the root of the problem? Where is this emotion stemming from? and Lastly, When is enough REALLY enough?

Lets get on the subject of you being emotionally hurt. Romance, childhood, family, whatever it may be.  When is it okay to let go? When is it okay to move on? Are we moved on because we’re now forced to live in the present or are we moved on because we truly CHOOSE to.

I am a witness of sulking. I’m a witness of wanting to grasp onto the sadness because its so much easier and less time consuming to force yourself to work towards that little piece of sunshine we call happiness.

Ask yourself this, Is it easier to stay in when its raining outside, or grab your coat, jacket, umbrella and get to a destination? Is it easier to tell a white lie on why you couldnt make it to your friends birthday party because your hungover from the night before, or tell her the truth knowing she’d get upset?

Exactly. Sometimes the easier way out is the best. No one wants to choose the road not taken because of fear. WE dont know whats on the other side. In our heads we’re walking into a black hole that might make us stronger or kill us. I mean, if we CHOOSE to see it that way. What about seeing things with an open mind? Glass half full? Instead of having fear of ‘moving on’ from being hurt, why can’t we see it as a bandage on a wound?..Not FULLY healed. But HELPING the process. You got to start somewhere.

It’s up to US to choose if we can really move on from hurt. I truly believe one can NOT move on without closure or an apology. If you were hurt by someone you love and they are aware and truly apologized, can you find it in yourself to forgive? forgive. not FORGET. I think it matters only the extent in which you were hurt. of course, my views and beliefs are different than yours .  I believe cheating is unforgivable and abuse. A push a shove, is acceptable. even a smack in my eyes. depending how bad the fight and if YOU were hit first. I mean, we should be civil enough to keep our hands to ourself but nonetheless, these are my views.

What if it’s sneakiness, being unloyal, embarrassment ? can this be forgiven and let go?

I believe so.

I believe these are flaws that can be changed on the spot. it doesn’t need therapy. It doesn’t need attention. it’s a simple choice of choosing left or right.   When its repetitive, thats when its an issue and its up to YOU to address it and choose if you want it in your life or not.

This brings me back to getting wrapped up in our emotions. What we dont realize is, when its an issue thats happened to us that can easily be changed if the other is willing then its not THAT big of an issue as we think. If someone is working hard at bettering themselves FOR YOU. isnt that a good thing? if you’re getting CONSTANT reassurance, isnt that a GOOD thing?  THIS is when you ask yourself when is enough really enough? and Am I giving them a harder time to find their way back to my heart because they deserve it? Or because I still have anger towards them and want them to feel that little bit of hurt like I did?

If you chose the second one, rethink it and try to break out of that.  See what you don’t see is, them knowing they hurt you replays in their head everyday. they are dying inside already. Reminding them of what they did and making them feel even worse about themselves isn’t giving them time to really GROW from the experience. its only making them SINK deeper into the root of the issue. Its making them go home at night thinking about themselves in a criminal way.  So at the end of the day, you’re making it WORSE for yourself and HARDER for you BOTH to move on from the incident.

It is not easy to forgive. But force yourself to let go. Force yourself to love.  Choose to get the resentment out of your heart and walk into a new day with a new conscious.  feeling free and uplifted. if you are able to do that its growth. Finding that inner calm, that center. Helping yourself only helps others. Show the person that hurt you that its okay. That you can both grow from this experience. That you are willing to open your heart back up (with a guard still) and move from an experience. I believe even the most criminal people have good in them. We all are born with it.

We are all born with innocence. We are all born with heart.

What we’re not all born with is love and guidance. And that is what leads many in the other direction. Evil cant be born with, it can only be learned and taught.

What will you choose today?

Are you going to choose to let go, forgive, or hold a grudge?

Ask yourself which one is going to make for a better tomorrow.

Which one is going to truly make me happy?

Take the road not taken.

It’ll make all the difference.

-Ac

Sid Sriram: Live Sessions EP

howithinks:

Music/art can be hype, emotional, real, fun, honest, epic, intimate. it can be any combination of anything that exists and holds life. all i want to do is put forth art that is a manifestation of self. yes music is an industry, but the fact that it is an artform should come first. With all of that said, I’m amped that my upcoming release is the Live Sessions EP. It’ll be releasing in June and I’ll keep you guys updated with more details in the coming weeks!

today was a fun day

btw i had such an amazing photoshoot today. dope shots so excited to share soon <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SID !!!!!

ah!!! everyone who knows me knows how much i LOVE holidays & birthdays !!! <3 any excuse to have candles and celebration & gifts is a weakness for me ! today is extra special because it is my Love’s birthday :) Sid you are an incredible human Being ! Not only are you incredibly talented but morally so amazing. I didnt know perfect existed until I met you. Have an amazing birthday, and I hate being in boston while you are in cali right now but next week i will make it up to you :) being on this earth for 22 years is special :) just like you . HAPPY BIRTHDAY  i love you more than anything xoxox

#brunetteshavewaymorefun